Wednesday, September 20, 2006

My beautiful boy



Now aren't you the most gorgeous little man in the world? You are a natural poser and boy do you have a set of lungs on you. You also seem to have inherited my bad temper (very sorry but hopefully it will improve with age)...you get into the biggest rages once you start. Really very funny to watch but not that pleasant on the ears.

I was very lucky with my labour and was only in the hospital for 2 hours before you popped out at 00.05 on 05/09/06. Giving birth was probably the weirdest feeling I've ever experienced - the only sensation that I can compare it to is like feeling like you're about to poo your pants although on a much larger scale. I was high as a kite on the gas and air and so was your daddy. So much so that he converted your weight from kgs wrongly and we told everyone that you were 7lb6 when in fact you were 6lb7. oops.

Right now you are sleeping and looking very angelic in your pushchair after a nice walk around Hammersmith. You love fresh air and fall asleep instantly as soon as we step out of the door. You also seem to be more settled today since we found out that you have thrush on your poor little bum and got some cream for it. Should be all better very soon but until then we have to watch you grimacing and screeching everytime you try to poo (which is surprisingly often).

Daddy went back to work very reluctantly yesterday and is missing you loads - he would definitely be a stay at home dad if he could I think. He's taken to fatherhood so naturally and is head over heels in love with you. But so is everyone who meets you...only 2 weeks old and already a heartbreaker!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

four days old

i love

you with my sister fi

i've never been in love so much. you're amazing. my friend dan thinks you have emo hair. i told your mamma this. she wasn't amused... :)

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

arrival

matteo



i just want to smoosh you and cuddle you and kiss you the whole time

well, apart from when you're wailing

dude, you got a mighty set o' lungs on you for such a little thing

xoxoxoxo

countdown

04-Sep-06 11:47
M-

Babs thinks the baby will come tonight

04-Sep-06 11:49
H-

Gosh.

04-Sep-06 11:54
M-

Exciting & mucho scary. Trying to tidy everything up. May go online in a little while so will mail you if I do


From: M-T- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:14 PM
To: H-

Hey

how are you? hope work isn't too dull without me around. I am starting to distinguish contractions from just general pain so I think he's on his way. Gonna jump into the bath in a little while to try and get a bit more comfortable. I've been rolling around on my swiss ball to try and ease things a little bit.

It's a little scary but I had the giggles a little while ago. I hope it isn't false labour - it wouldn't really feel like this i don't think.


From: H- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:19 PM
To: M-T-
do a last minute blog entry! how does it feel? have you called spencer? when do you have to go to the hospital?


From: M-T- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:22 PM
To: H-

yeah i will do in a sec. It feels like bad period pains and then the contraction feels...i dunno. Weird. Uncomfortable more than painful at the moment but i guess it will just get worse so trying to do the deep breathing thing. I sent him a text and he said to keep him posted. We have to call the hospital before we go to let them know how far apart the contractions are and if the waters break or anything. Hasn't been any other signs like that as yet so just got to sit it out. Barbara thinks I'll have to go in later tonight.


From: H- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:23 PM
To: M-T-
woooooooooooooooooooooo

how do you feel, aside from the discomfort/pain??

do you have to wait for a certain time gap between contractions before you go in?


From: M-T- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:30 PM
To: H-
i feel a bit giggly. Trying not to get too excited in case it's not the real thing but pretty sure that it is esp with babs here. Her nephew just came over with his girlf and their 2 year old daughter and he was like "You look like you're quite uncomfortable right now".

Also burnt my tongue on spring rolls.

They gave us certain time scales for the contractions. I think early labour they are every 20-30 mins and last for 10secs then reduces to every 5-10 mins and then every couple and last longer each time. I tihnk at the mo they're about every 12-15 mins but haven't been timing them properly as my watch's battery is going a bit screwy.

I'm hungry again.


From: H- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:35 PM
To: M-T-
you're in labour and you're hungry?! mmm sushi soon...

man, i can't believe it's really happening. holler if you need me or anything at all. your bag is all packed and everything isn't it?

blimey. there'll be an extra person in the world soon.


From: M-T- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:38 PM
To: H-
I'm always hungry. Could do with some mac cheese or something but forgot to get stuff like that. May go raid the kitchen in a minute. Sushi and prawns soon. I'm going to make a thai red curry with fish and prawns when I feel up to it. So good.

It's all about food.

Bag is just about packed - threw some stuff in this morning but can't think straight as usual so just hoping that i have everything that i need. May go and charge the ipod up and get some magazines on the way in.

Of course i'll call you. Prob will give you a call when i'm on the way in and you can come down if you want. Spence seems to be freaking out more than me.

Ouch - here comes another one. Definitely time to get in the bath in a minute.


From: H- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:44 PM
To: M-T-
oh man, really? why, what's he doing? [re; freaking out]

you have clothes to wear when you leave that aren't huge maternity things? ipod is a good idea.


From: M-T- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:47 PM
To: H-

He's just worrying about me being in pain and having to sit there and watch and not be able to do anything to help. The other day he said that it's going to be worse for him in that respect and i was like "I get what you're saying but trust me i think it will be worse for me!". Then his friend mark said that we've all had constipation so knows what it will feel like....

Just some tracksuit bottoms and a t-shirt. It's only around the corner from home and don't feel the need to look esp nice!

How's things with you anyway? I'm not going to be online for too much longer as thischair isn't very comfortable.


From: H- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:49 PM
To: M-T-
yeah i totally get his point of view, i'm getting excited but i'm kind of scared for you as well

his friend mark deserves a clip round the ear

go and get in the bath, woman. call me when you're heading in to the hosp.

love you lots

hxoxox


From: M-T- Mon, Sep 4, 2006 at 3:51 PM
To: H-

coolio. Good to know that you're scared too - gives me lots of confidence. Ha ha. I'm still quite cheery about it all right now. The mood swing has yet to fly in the other direction (I almost cried yesterday coz Homebase was shut).

i'll chat to you later...enjoy the rest of work xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx



04-Sep-06 19:51
M-
Ow fucking ow. This is not fun. Going to be a long night

04-Sep-06 19:52
H-
Oh chicken I’m so sorry. Lots of love and hugs and hand squeezing, and just think of the amazing little man there’ll be at the end of it all xoxo

04-Sep-06 19:54
M-

I know. It’s fine in between but the actual contractions are getting nasty

04-Sep-06 19:55
H-

Time to head in soon? How far apart are they? Spencer is with you, right?

04-Sep-06 19:56
M-
He’s just gone to play football for an hour. Babs is here tho. Gonna call the hospital when he gets back.

04-Sep-06 19:58
H-
Football at a time like this?! Good grief.

04-Sep-06 20:03
M-

What can I say? He asked if I minded. He’s all over the place anyway… he even put his shorts on the wrong way round…

04-Sep-06 20:04
H-
Aww poor thing. Well if you need to call and wail, I’m here xo

[Insert phone call where M tells me how much of a flap your daddy is in and has a contraction while we're talking which sounds painful and makes me wish i was there to hold her hand]

04-Sep-06 20:50
M-

What the hell have I got myself into. Still watching birth stories on living as well.

04-Sep-06 21:02
H-
Stop torturing yourself! Watch charmed and wish you were a witch so you could magic the baby out…

04-Sep-06 21:10
M-

Shit. Fuck ouch.

04-Sep-06 21:02
H-
Eeeep

04-Sep-06 21:49
M-
Going in will call you soon

05-Sep-06 04:12
M-
This is so weird. Got a tiny little man by my side! Am very sore as I tore and had to have stiches. He’s so little!

05-Sep-06 04:16
H-

Oof sounds painful. How much did he weigh? How long are you staying in? is he beautiful? xoxox

05-Sep-06 04:18
M-
Why are you still awake! It’s very painful indeed-can’t sit up. He’s 7.6 and of course he’s beautiful! Are you impressed by the speed?

05-Sep-06 04:20
H-

Definitely! How long will you be there for? Want to come visit. How was Spence? I couldn’t sleep, of course. Big kisses to you both. Bring on sushi & alcohol!

05-Sep-06 04:25
M-
Come tmrw-bunk off work. Don’t know how long I’m in for. Spence was great-I was off my head on gas and air. Giving birth was the weirdest feeling. I’m all alone with him on a ward now. Wish I had a book or tv or something

05-Sep-06 04:16
H-
Sleep!

05-Sep-06 04:28
M-
Can’t. Breast feeding and scared of squishing him. So tired. Was trying to sleep during labour!

05-Sep-06 04:31
H-
Like that was a possibility! Sleep once he’s down. There’s nothing on tv at this time of morning anyway. You didn’t bring a book or mag with you?

05-Sep-06 04:34
M-

Thought about it but forgot to pack my book. I’ll try and send you a pic now. You gonna come tmrw?

05-Sep-06 04:36
H-
Yes def at some point. Are you allowed yr phone on the whole time? Was he born on the 4th or 5th? And what’s the final name?

05-Sep-06 04:41
M-
Not meant to have the phone on but I’m all alone so no one knows. Born on 5th at 00:05. Need to pee but so sore and don’t want to leave him. Pic wouldn’t send.

05-Sep-06 04:45
H-
Boo. Stupid phone. Well let me know if there’s anything I can bring you or if they send you home. Will prob be in the afternoon, sorry. Is there one you can call for help or to watch him while you pee? I need to sleep…

05-Sep-06 04:53
M-
Go to sleep. Just put him down and went to pee. So Damn sore but he’s worth it. Drop me a text later then. Sweet dreams godmother xxx

05-Sep-06 07:23
M-
I’ve slept for like an hour. Can’t take my eyes off him.

05-Sep-06 07:45
H-
J I totally overslept. Is Spence coming back today or does he have to work? I can’t wait to meet him. Give him a kiss from me. Matteo I mean, not spencer…

05-Sep-06 07:48
H-
Is there nothing they can give you for it? I can’t believe you have a baby. Will you try sending a pic again?

05-Sep-06 07:50
M-
Been giving me painkillers to take the edge off. Still fucking hurts tho. Will try the pic… you should so bunk work.

05-Sep-06 04:16
H-
I know I so want to but there’s only two of us in at the moment and I made the mistake of telling her you were in labour. Gonna try to leave super early tho

05-Sep-06 07:54
M-
Muppet. I’m trying to work up the courage to call James. This baby is already a handbag baby. Won’t sleep unless he’s in my arms

05-Sep-06 04:16
H-

Aww he’s so tiny! Schools go back this week, he might be starting secondary school today

05-Sep-06 07:59
M-
He was pissed off in that pic by the way coz the light was shining in his eyes

05-Sep-06 08:02
H-
Haha poor thing. Must go and dry my hair and find large of caffeine but will text you later xo

Monday, September 04, 2006

38 weeks + 4 days

Hey hey little man...looks like you may be making an appearance very soon. I have been having pains since saturday night that have been getting worse everyday (not to mention the mood swings!) and I woke up this morning with what felt like heavy period pains. It's been getting worse throughout the day and your nanny thinks that you will be popping out sometime tonight or tomorrow morning. We have spent today sorting out the moses basket and the last minute washing and in between I have been rolling around on the swiss ball which is meant to "open the pelvis" and help. Just quite nice sitting on a squishy ball.

I just sorted out the digital camera so there's lots of memory on it to take pics of your entrance. We will prob get godmother H to come down and take more pics on her camera too.

Just having another contraction right now i think. Rock and roll for some pain relief - see you soon!